Alright here we go.......A new journey . I have been being told that i need to talk to someone about the things in
my head so I'm going to try to just get it out of my head and see if that helps . now I'm not talking about ranting on how my husband made me mad today or how the kids are totally ticking me off . but I am going to start telling my life story for a bit. now I'm gonna try and not bore you with lots of details of when I was a kid . I'm going to start about 8 years ago maybe a little bit more like 13 years ago . I was graduating from high school . we had just moved back to nampa to help care for my grandfather. it was thanksgiving and my amazing aunt brought a pecan pie to thanks giving dinner. and she started bragging about this guy that went to her church that had made this pie for us. I was so excited (its my favorite pie) and i didn't like it. it had more cinnamon in it then what i liked . so I told my aunt and she went back home and told him that so he decided that he never wanted to meet me. I was fine with that cause I had more important things on my mind then guys. I was going to be a youth pastor and stop abortion and help my dad at his new church. so never thought of it again . in a few months my aunt tried again by mentioning that I should come visit her and meet this guy. I said no. I moved with my family to Oregon to help dad and started collage. in 2009 I started worrying that I was NEVER going to find my future husband . I had known from the age of 4 that i was going to be a stay at home mom and home school my kids. it was never part of the picture. I had been going to school for a year and not one guy had hit on me . I started on e Harmony and that for the most part flopped lol although I did meet one of my best friends on there lol so in late 2010 My aunt texted me from the pie guys phone while they where at church. we laughed about it and i told her that "he was going to kill her!" and at that point He had got his phone back and replied to me that yeah she was going to die lol we started texting to come up with a plan to get back at her for trying to get us together again. we ended up texting daily and days turned into weeks , weeks turned into months. after a few weeks we decided that we might be in love with each other so we made plans to meet. we made plans to stay with my aunt. we got there at 2 am and pie guy was there. with flowers and his childhood bear. we spent every day that week together. when I got back home to Oregon we kept talking and after a little time we decided that yes we did love one another and that we wanted to get married. we had spent a lot of time talking about our future and what it would be like to get married and have a family and he was fine with everything that I wanted , my staying home , homeschooling, lots of kids. all of it. so a year later in 2011 we got married. and in 3 months we got pregnant. after a few days of the happiness follows finding out your expecting we had a bad day . we had lost the baby. i cried for weeks and then after a few weeks of the miscarriage we had a 2nd pregnancy test. we waited a little bit to make the announcement just in case this one didn't take either. after a few weeks we went to a midwife and she tried to listen for a heart beat and couldn't find it . she went ahead and informed me that she thought that I was making it up and fooling myself into thinking i was pregnant when i wasn't . we left for another opinion. the next midwife we went to conformed that i was expecting . we went to all the midwife appointments and everything, after 4 months I came to the realization that I needed my mother. i had a feeling that this wasn't going to be an easy pregnancy. so we moved from Kimberly Idaho to nampa to be closer to my family . after 2 weeks of living with mom and dad we got our own place , we found a new midwife and started going to appointments , after 31 weeks i started having complications. Tuesday i started showing signs of early labor and went to the hospital . they checked me and sent me home . i was on bed rest . on Wednesday my mom and the girls( my sisters and grandma) wanted to go to lunch and invited me to go with them I figured i was home alone and needed to eat anyways, so I decided to tag along. that ended up being a bad decision cause that about 8 pm we went to bed and i was having bad back pains , at 1 am on Thursday i called my mother and midwife telling them that i hadn't slept yet and i was nausea . so I woke pie guy and we went to the Hospital. they checked me and the Dr was about to send me home and then head nurse came in and told him that i was going into labor and that he was going to send me to the hospital in Boise downtown . ( i was only 31 weeks and 5 days ) they sent me to Boise and got me a room. i hadn't eaten since 6pm on Wednesday. i was sooooo hungry lol . we got there and they gave me some meds to help me sleep through my contractions. at 4 pm Thursday, I was a mother . and my baby was being sent to the nicu. and i was being sent to my room in the other direction. after i had gotten some food in my tummy and had got moved to my room . been seen by the lactation ladies and got my breast pump I was finally able to go down and see my baby girl. she was so small and so perfect. I would spend every day there in that little room with her. i was there no later than 7 am and stayed till 12 am the next morning . pie guy would go to work and come back and spend 2 hours with our baby girl and then we would go a block away to the Ronald McDonald house . I spent every day praying for my marriage and my baby . I sat and read scripture and prayed . Jeremiah 29 :11 "for I know the plans that I have for you declares the lord . plans to prosper and not to harm you plans to give you a hope an a future." and daily my baby would be fine and the nurses were kind and all had faith that all the babies would be fine.
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AuthorI am a mother of 4, who doesn't believe in birth control , I have been married for 6 years . I was home schooled and am homeschooling my children as well. I use homeopathic remedies rather then go to the doctor. I use essential oils and love to just be me. this is my crazy life! Archives
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